Monday, May 29, 2006

God seem distant,again its a period of spiritual dryness.
this is really diffcult,i miss dwelling in His pressence.
its really terrible to feel as if all my prayers being bounced off the ceiling.
but i know He is always here,right beside me.
is the matter of faith i have in Him,im goin to wait upon His pressence.
even if it takes days,weeks,months.
i know my God will never forsake me.
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His Word,the promises He made- keeps me going.
Thank You,Lord.
[Isaiah8:17] "I will wait for the LORD,who is hiding His face from the house of Jacob.I will put my trust in him."

helped out in dialect church in boonlay,i so miss having service in that building.
served as a lift usher with char,pretty interesting.
thuo afew elders demand their way down the main audi,but thank God people come in time to save me.
fun loving people they are,serving them is great joy.

watched the dialect service,they have a mini bible study on salvation+CIC.
and i hardly understand a single word they spoke.
char and i were having problem singing the praise song,we sang the english version instead.

i miss doing this-


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and howe,im goin to beat u in daytona one day!

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yea,and finally its school holiday already!
my long awaited rest. =D

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

last evening when i was having my quiet time,telling/crying to the Lord about all my problems like a child.i was definately expecting Him to comfort my soul telling me everything will be jus fine.
But wait,this time round God said nothing.Not even a verse from the bible.
and of cos,i continued with all my whinning and complains.u know,i thot God might too busy and didnt hear me or something.
yea,so much of being a whinner.
HAHAs`and yes,the Lord finally spoke.

nah,nothing from the bible.
all He said was, " Go and bathe."

HAHAHAHA!
funny aint it?!
for a moment i thot it was the voice of my own concious.(its already 8pm and i was still in my sch uniform looking so bad after all the crying.)
yea,i tried arguing with the "voice".but somewhere somehow i just gave up and went to bathe.

i even went online and asked zhengxuan,gary and venus what was the most random thing God spoke to them.
then i told them about the voice which i assumed its God's.
oh man,i tink they have a great time laughing at me. =/

so anyway,i was meditating on those 3 words.
er ya, "Go and bathe."
i got alittle fed up.i cant tink of anything that link/make sense to prove that its His voice.
and while walking home from the bus stop,suddenly this revelation just hit me out of nowhere..

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"Go and bathe."

Go : to move on.
the bible says,"Go into the promised Land."

and we all kno,the journey there will not be easy.you'll be facing alot of challenges ahead.
that symbolized our life.

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And : not only

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Bathe : water ( Holy Spirit),it cleanse us.
* when a person bathe,its normal to start from the head.
-this thus indicates that we have to first renew our thinking.and not to be worried about the current situation.
-when the water flows down from the head to the sole of the foot,it symbolize Holy Spirit flowing through us,covering every part of our body.(God's protection is with us always.)

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"Go And Bathe."=> Get out from your current situation,no point crying/worrying over such matters and keep moving on.But DO NOT move on base on your own strength,thinking.Be filled with the Holy Spirit,renew your mindset and cleanse your spirit daily.Trust in God and His Spirit will lead you through the way to the promised land.

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Sunday, May 14, 2006

i haven been eating much whole of this week.
the last time i have a proper full meal was 2 fridays ago.
im have no idea whats wrong with my body system,i just cant get food down.

Friday, May 12, 2006

seriousy,i love exceeding people's limitations.
its really through there,i'll get to kno the person inside-out.
anyway,the fun is over.im sick of this game.
its time for another round of excitments-

GAMEOVER

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ROFLMAO!
venus and i crawlled through the prelimary round and got in to the EMERGE FINAL!
now u kno,God's grace is superb.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

i find no mood to blog.suddenly im missing the days of Cseven.

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

reality,once again over-ruled the whole situation.
pulled myself out of the dream,
no longer i'll be staying there,its a world full of uncertainties.
that sweet childhood dream overturned to the worst nightmare,i wanna quit.
my mp3 played that familar song,i listened with a different heart-such beautiful lyrics.
numb my heart and freeze my mind,i wanna tink and feel no more.

Monday, May 01, 2006

i woke up screaming,memories/the moments we've shared get into my mind.
shook my head hard,i refuse to think.
fear and doubts crept in like nobody business,i cried in pain.
this heartache is definately killing me,i shouldnt have such high expectations.
my bad.a wrong wrong desicion i've made.
strangers we are,and period.

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emerge extreme sport; XIONG!
the sun itself is enough to kill.say,wat about all those running.
disappointed i am with my own running.im not even doing the average.
for the first time over the years of lesiure/competitive running,i get cramps.
and i've only ran 200m!!stab me to death LA!

anyway,its over.things that are done,cannot be undone.

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